Never regret anything...

Now, what do I want?  To want something so much, but what if it passes?  I am surprised at many of the choices I have made in my life, but I do know that I made them because they were what I wanted at the time.  So maybe it is pointless to regret any of those choices.
I guess the only thing is that when you are part of a family unit, you also have to consider the wants of all. I know I regret, in retrospect those things that may have had a negative impact on my family.  To my credit, I do think that I have chosen with consideration for others.  We simply cannot predict any negative results, especially when choosing with the best of intentions. And certainly we forgive others in our lives if they make choices that do hurt us.
I guess a person can remain frozen with indecision, stuck in place, because the alternatives seem so hard to visualize.  Or you are waiting, waiting, waiting  ... for?

 

How often have I been across this bridge?  A few times as an adolescent, shopping trips as a young mother, as a mature student attending college and actually living on the other side, visiting sister and family later on, a nerve-wracking trip when spouse was in the hospital, visiting daughter when she was at college, more shopping and visiting trips with stops at the gardens down by the river.  

Perhaps it's that feeling of time finally beginning to flow by faster.  I thought it might be possible to choose a home, with a garden and settle there for good.  But now I'm not so sure of that anymore. However, it also doesn't feel like there are so many options out there as there were before, it's not possible for me to imagine just growing old in one place anymore. 

Are regrets really beginning to take the place of dreams, as someone has said?  

 

"Regrets"

I think we like to think that life can be safe, secure, and serene.  But life also encompasses dark times, uncertain times, sometimes despairing times.  What one needs to know is that the pendulum swings both ways, and to accept that. 

Much of what I most enjoy reading is the writing that delves into those darker feelings, that illuminates the courage that many of us must find to move forward back into the light.